'I tried to kill myself': Ex-AFL star reveals struggles with suicide and bulimia

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Former AFL star Brock McLean has revealed the turbulent off-field life he led before turning to therapy to help get his mental health back on track.
Speaking on the Herald Sun's Sacked podcast McLean, who played 157 games at the highest level with Melbourne and Carlton, opened up on the emotional rollercoaster he endured leading up to a bipolar diagnosis in 2019.

After Carlton told him at the end of 2014 he was no longer a required player (despite gathering 30 possessions in the final game of the season), McLean's sense of self was shaken.

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"My self-worth was tied to what I was doing and when I was a footballer I had a high self-worth so when I finished footy I was at the bottom rung and it got to the point in my life where I was like, "I can't do this any more" and I tried to kill myself," he said.

After being pleaded with by those around him to seek therapy, McLean turned to a psychologist in 2017 before falling back into old habits.

"It was in August 2017, I wont talk about the method because that can stoke ideas but I spend two or three days in ICU in St Vincent's Hospital and another two or three days in the general ward while I got over my attempted suicide ailments and then spent three weeks…
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